Waking Up on Earth

Naming the Nameless

Thu, 22 Apr 2010 09:32:29 -0600

My human-spiritual conundrum is how to share something in the form of words that is wordless by nature. Once I name it or try to describe it, I feel I am dishonoring it. When I use the term “Divine Feminine” it is simply an attempt to meet others through the mind - through language or symbology - until we’re all comfortable with “what is” without naming it. I have asked myself many times, “Why should I even have a website?”. I imagine people stumbling upon this website, reading a few words and then based on their conditioning from the past, they will say “Ah, this person is talking about ____. I (hate/like) that.” And then they drop it into a properly labeled manila folder, tuck it into their “All That is Known” file cabinet, and are on with their busy lives. Perhaps you could imagine a series of visitations from the Unknown that by its very nature wipes all of your files or the hard drive of your mind and the bulk of your conditioning away. What might you be left with? How could you be in the world without labels or categories, including the image or persona that you have carefully crafted over time? This has been my life. I don’t have the convenience of hiding from myself anymore. It’s terrifying and blissful - all at once.

Only when the past is wiped clean
Can I be
Informed by something
Greater than
What I once thought was me

Suicide: Dying to Live

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 21:42:16 -0600

This is an audio file originally posted on an iTunes podcast. It was dated July 16, 2007. With more and more reports of suicide in America and worldwide, as well as my own personal experience of losing two friends in this way last year, I decided to re-post it here.

This is the Angelic, or more Universal view on the topic. The words and energy come through in a channeling or communion state.

Song “Under the Sun” from the Album Songs of Anima.

Angelic Message from Michael

Tue, 7 Apr 2009 00:20:47 -0600

Channeled and Transcribed
5/16/07

There are investigations in your world within the known and there are ongoing investigations of the Unknown, but careful to those who claim to be investigating the Unknown, that they are not operating from the ground of the known; that they are not assigning meaning based on the definitions of known and the terms of known. The Unknown is felt. It is an indefinable sense. Some may feel this larger Unknown as evil. Others may perceive it as God. Which individual is correct?

You quickly find in doing your research that the waters do become quite muddy. This occurs when you are trying to reduce or explain something that is perceived directly, from something that is perceived through thought or reason. There is no judgement here from this perspective. You may refer to me as Michael. I am angelic in nature, but do not begin to identify me from your known definitions and ground rules. There are almost as many definitions of Life; of Love; of God; of Truth on your planet as there are people. So this communion is for the purpose of assisting you to get back on track with the clarity that you know, the waters that you know, the feeling.

Michael is an authority to many. If Michael says it, then it is more likely that the readers will believe and will at least read through the entire message here and pay attention, for they are accustomed to projecting this authority onto someone who they believe is far more wise, far more powerful, far more loving than they are. And some believe far more than they will ever be, for they have bought into this idea of original sin. I am Michael, and I am saying there is no such thing as original sin.

Yet there is such a thing as a monumental misunderstanding - the foundation upon which your known humanity is built; the foundation in which you all sit at this timing; the foundation that will be and is dissolving. It is at this time that you will all be meeting with your own evils, your own sense of separation from That Which Is. It is not something to fear but something to celebrate, for you say that you are tired of the pain and suffering and yet you keep contributing to this reality. So to awaken from this dream, as you refer to it, all that is needed is a sincere desire to awaken. But as is so obvious within the framework and context of your addictions and your addictive personalities in your reality, the most difficult aspect of overcoming addiction is the stepping forward to say, "I am addicted"- and the willingness to recall more into your reality, the more that is Love. It is not enough that you condemn what you do not approve of in the way of behaviors on your planet. The question would be directed to the self. How might I be embodying this separation within myself? How might I be embodying evil? How might I be agreeing to something less than Love? It is this personal, conscious dialog that stimulates and initiates the movement towards healing.

Now, not everyone on the planet will choose this consciously. It is true. And they are not to be condemned for not choosing Love. It is a phrase that has been used quite often on your planet - "It is the time to choose Love". Yes indeed it is! When will you begin? Choosing Love is not comparing yourself to another and saying, well he or she is not, and I am because I am not doing what they are doing! This will not do dear people. This will not do. Stop comparing yourself to others. Stop measuring yourself to what you have been told is spirituality; to what you have been told is sacred. It is time to confront all that is evil within yourself. You have much help in doing this. Understand that you may not even know; you may not even be conscious of how you contribute to the world being the way it is. That is all right. You do not have to analyze or reason this out. This surrender of sorts is all that is needed to begin the flow of Love, the return of Love into your consciousness. This is LIFE! Something that most of you have convinced yourself that you are doing here on Planet Earth. I dare say that most of you are not actually living.

Some of you have convinced yourselves that you are living, for you are quite spiritual in your practices. Some of you have been condemned to live separate from your societies, and yet isn't it interesting that there are some now who sit in institutions of many varieties that are actually closer to understanding of Life, Love, Beauty and Truth, than those who kneel everyday in prayer. How could this be? How could this be? For you have been taught from day one that this, this and this is "good", "pious", "spiritual". On the other hand, this, this and that is bad, very bad, and no good can come of it. That is the mistake. The mistake is in thinking if you are "good", then no bad can come. And conversely, if you are bad then no good can come. This is not true.

Love is not good or bad. Love is the benevolent flow of the Universe, of All That Is, and it is naturally inclined to that which promotes growth; that which promotes joy, abundance, peace, and it is your thoughts and the way that you structure your world that creates all of the road blocks to the natural flow of this Love. Now you do see this in nature, this natural flow. There is joy in birth and there is joy in death. There is no separation of joy for it is all purposeful - Love in form and function working in a balanced and harmonious way. This is not a condemnation of thought or intellect. There has been a building of steady imbalances due to the fact that you are founded upon, most of your cultures now on the planet, most of your beliefs, most of your actions collectively speaking, are founded upon this monumental misunderstanding that you are not all that is natural, harmonious and balanced. You all are! And those who call themselves "good" as well as those who call, or have been called, "bad", have equal opportunity to turn that faucet on, but there must be the conscious recognition that the water has stopped. And in that stopping of the flow of these waters, there is great discomfort - so much discomfort that you must now say, "I am uncomfortable and I want to live fully, comfortably, abundantly, joyfully, and I recognize that I have in the past become addicted to a way of life that is not conducive to my well being, that inhibits me from having the healing that I require to open, to restore, to That Which I Am - which is the bounty of All of Creation!

So all people, whether you consider yourself or have been named "good" or "bad", all of you must evaluate now in these coming times how perhaps have you been inhibiting the flow of Creation, the flow of Truth, the flow of Innocence into your lives? Where have you blocked this? Take responsibility - each individual, take that responsibility - for the entire world. I am not saying it is your fault that the world contains so much suffering and pain; I am saying that there is that suffering and pain within you that is being hidden. It goes unacknowledged, thereby creating these categories of consciousness called "subconscious" and "unconscious". These are man-made or intellectual concepts. There are no such categories. There is what you are willing to see that is hidden, and what you are not willing to see that is hidden. And guess what? There is hidden within you that you judge or condemn as evil outside of yourself. There is also hidden within you that Light that you praise and glorify and project out onto angels and saints - that which you do not own either. The balance of the entire world is in your hands - in each and every one of you. Do not be afraid of these times, for it is simply a call for healing and restoration, and a re-turn - turning again - to your Source; to fill you; to be fulfilled in human form on Earth as it is in what you term "Heaven". Heaven is a feeling.

You all have within you the instruction manuals and the power to begin. There comes a time when your seeking to find the truth outside of yourself in teachers and in books, in your travels, your pilgrimages - there are always new understandings in these activities - and there comes a time when the real work begins. And that is when you give up all your distractions and you sit down with Creator face to face and have a chat. If you don't understand something, if you are confused, than that is what you say in that moment, right where you are. You are loved unconditionally. There is nothing that you can say that would change that. It is what you don't say; it is what you hide that changes your reality for you, not for Creation. So make these feelings honest. If you are angry, get angry. If you are sad, let the grief come. If you are confused, say "I am confused and I do not know how to proceed but I know that you will show me, because I come here with the passion to know; the passion to live; to know Life in its fullness on Earth!"

Message on “Panic”

Mon, 6 Apr 2009 23:10:19 -0600

Transmission from the Natural World
May 25, 2007

When panic sets in it is mostly due to things not going as expected. Is this not true? And more often than not, with humans there is the immediate response of fear. Notice this. This is what perpetuates fear and perpetuates the limited cycles of cause and effect through the human-ized world; that is, the world as seen through human eyes, which in this timing is more of the intellectual-eyes.

To have a disruption in this way releases you... in actuality it releases you from a certain momentum or unfolding path that suddenly does not serve you and your needs as well as you had imagined that they would. There is a release into an opportunity to be connected to that which serves you, to that which supports your requests, honors them, and provides.

Humans are accustomed to having something to hold onto at all times. They are not accustomed to knowing and trusting that they will be instinctually and intuitively led to that which they need, as is the case with other natural beings on Earth. They [natural beings] are accustomed to allowing more of the spaces in between rest and action, while humans feeling this unnatural disconnect from their sustenance - their true sustenance on earth - engage the mind to search out and to find and to grab hold of something that the mind actually assigns that particular meaning to - whether it is true or not. It is an interesting game of the mind and for some reason humans have adapted to this false sense of security by having something to hold. Whether it is authentic or not; it is the goal. In this experience of panic there is an opportunity to allow your needs to be met without holding on to something - that “something” that is not representative in the least bit, or does not contain or possess any power or ability to provide you with what you actually need. Let it go. Let it go. It would not have served you and your needs.

Now how to be in this space where there is nothing to reach out to and grab hold of that says "This is my safety. This is my security to keep me from my worst fears being manifest." Breathe through this in-between time. There is no service in this way to you to provide you with something to grab onto. The service that a spiritual friend can provide is to guide you and support you in feeling the balance and the peace that resides in these unmanifest realms - the realm of the unknown versus the known. For this is the place where humans have a tendency to trip themselves up, by reaching and grabbing for something known and adapting themselves to that “something known” in order to provide their minds - not their bodies - their minds with a sense of safety. Again the mind is given preference... preferential treatment... and this is due to the conditioning. You see? That is all. Just the conditioning. For your body, your feelings, your heart, your intuitive instinctual nature will kick into gear if the words don't rush in, if the things don't rush in and the scenarios; if the safety nets of the mind do not rush in to fill the space. Let the space be there and see what turns up naturally. You may continue to be watchful of the feelings, breathe with the feelings, especially with the ones of fear. Breathe! Pray or ask to feel connected to something greater - that greater that always sustains you if you allow it to.

So there is no prescription here. There may be nothing for you to act on right in this moment. The next moment may bring something to act upon - whether it is you that initiates or you that responds - you will feel a movement within you to initiate or to respond. Trust that. This will strengthen your resolve. Breathe. Rest. Now.

Mom, Dad... I’m a Cosmosexual (Excerpt 1)

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 10:33:13 -0700

There. I said it. I’m “out”. Now you may be wondering, what does that mean to be a cosmo-sexual? Who is she having sex with? Aliens? No. I just came up with this term the other day – inspired to proudly declare my orientation to the world. Please be patient with me while I find new ways to define human life from what I have discovered is humanities’ little-known cosmic positioning system on Earth – our own physical bodies.

I did a little research. The root of “homosexual” is “homo” – meaning “same”. And the root of “heterosexual” is “hetero” – meaning “the opposite”. Therefore, a “cosmo-sexual” must be one who is attracted to and desires a deep connection with the Universal – not to exclude the usual tasty menu choices from the ‘ol “same and opposite” café – but rather enjoying the introduction of a few more delectable dimensions of human passion.

It’s been an issue for me since birth – trying to find the category or box that I fit into – and I am not just speaking in terms of sexuality. I managed to find temporary boxes where my rolling-stone identity found respite, and gathered an inkling of what I thought might be moss. But so far I have found no final title, affiliation, or soft green covering that satisfies or suits me here. You may find yourself wondering when this condition of cosmo-sexuality may have originated. Conception? Gestation? Environment? I’m not sure that this can be answered within the usual authoritative framework of science and religion. I know that I can only speak from experience, and direct experience is not a belief, theory or concept. It’s actual.

You see, in my life, it wasn’t just Mom and Dad, extended family, teachers, friends and television that were influencing the development of my identity here. For some unknown reason, since childhood, I have been experiencing grand and expansive frequencies from way outside the four walls of acceptability in my neighborhood… and I would be lying if I didn’t include the word terrifying, to describe my relationship at times with the “Cosmos”. As I grew older, I began burning through all of my energy reserves – trying to squeeze into the expectation and culture of small-minded life on Earth. And with this, the Universal became even more persistent in its courtship – determined to keep my consciousness moving, changing, growing, evolving at all cost. This “cosmic stranger” seemed to pass through my small-town consciousness on a regular basis – wreaking havoc on what I identified or what I had settled into as “my town”. Eventually, I understood this to be my ongoing adaptation to the actual feeling; the actual experience of a grand and Loving Universal Force coursing through my veins. The terrifying part is that when it moves in, it destroys all that is untrue and unreal – things that we are convinced are real because everybody says so. This Love didn’t want to just live in my town, or on my street, it wanted to set up residence in my blood; my bones; my breath – blowing away all ideas and concepts of what I thought life was; what I thought love was, who I thought I was; and who I thought you were.

My feet fell through the flimsy deck of past & future thought
onto the solid ground of feeling and knowing…
a knowing of the Truth of my larger identity…
our identity as human beings…
the Truth that sets us free from the past;
from all that we have been told – Into a Truth
that we just know
Not in our mind,
But in the heart of our embodied Soul.

I don’t remember the exact moment when I could no longer resist, and gave in whole-heartedly to the Love Fest. I said “yes” – not because it was easy, but because I couldn’t make life within the insanity of conditioned humanity work for me anymore. And it is from the surrender into the present moment, Universal encounter that I have enjoyed conscious access to the rewards of “wedded bliss” with my new partner – the Cosmic Soul. I am fed from the Center of Me; the Center of I; the Center of the Universe. I died… yet I’m still here… on Earth. You don’t have to convince me that this is our divine heritage. I know. I’m out of the closet. Perhaps you’d like to “come out” too.

Cosmic sex is great. Wow!
It’s out of this world…
It’s spiritual,
it’s physical,
it’s here,
and it’s now.